The Damsel’s Disappearance: Episode 15

Today is 21 Jun 2018 is 15 mth after her disappearance…

This is my random webseries.
Any similarity to real life people is coincidence.

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The damsel, the girl, the babe, the same, or not?

The damsel is famous and powerful, a word from her mouth will be a quote that students gotta debate in schools, a research topic for PHDs, a documentary for news channels.

The girl is cute and captivating, a word from her mouth will be a sound people use for orgasm, they don’t really bother about what she says.

The babe is hot and attractive, no one cares what she says at all.

Everyday, people approach all three ladies.
However, out of 10 people: 7 approach the damsel, 2 approach the girl, 1 for the babe.

The damsel’s supporters:
They like the damsel because she’s direct and straight to the point, she is honest and will have actions backing her words.
They don’t like the girl thinking she’s a bimbo while the babe is useless.

The girl’s followers:
They like the girl because she’s reserved and doesn’t call anyone out directly, she is random and will talk about anything under the sun.
They don’t like the damsel thinking she’s extreme while the babe is nothing.

The babe’s peeps:
They approach her and if she doesn’t react, they walk away.
Not a supporter or follower, worse than a stalker.

Of course…
There are people who like the damsel and girl but not the babe, thinking, talking to peeps on the street is a waste of time.
There are people who like the damsel and babe but not the girl, thinking she is wasting time if she doesn’t get to action.
There are people who like the girl and babe but not the damsel, thinking a lady must be physically attractive before she even opens her mouth.

Most importantly, there are people who like all three.
The damsel who will conduct actions and rally the world when necessary, the girl who is lively as someone to talk to daily, the babe whom people stare at on the street and hold random conversations with strangers because why not?

The damsel is someone to bring to functions and events for she gets attention.
The girl is someone to marry and take care of the family for she’s of wife material.
The babe is someone to sleep with for she can easily turn one on.

What if… the damsel, the girl, the babe, are the same?

I have to be strong not because I want to, because I have to.

Exactly 9 months ago, I cried after taking this pic.

Took me 6 months to accept I can’t turn back time and accept I’m different.
Took me 2 months to realize I can get back what I’ve lost and better.

Exactly 1 month ago, I was injured by some ppl.

To the people who made my birthday last year the worst day of my life and to the people who harmed me physically or in other ways via various vicious methods, are you happy?

I don’t hate you and I don’t blame you, I understand it’s “just a job” right?

Somehow, I make videos that are not like other girls.
Someone, I post stuff that are not like other girls.
Somehow, I’m not like other girls.
I understand and I accept.

I’m thankful to the people who continue to believe in me after everything that happened the past 9 months.

I experienced the pain of losing people I love and things I like, but I’ve also experienced the love from people when I have literally nothing at all.

I experienced the hurt of people harming me through words and physically, but I’ve also experienced the concerns from people who gave me real concrete solutions.

I experienced the suffering of falling ill when I was alone and having no one there, but I’ve also experienced the care from people when they walk up to me in public.

Yes, I put on a strong front while I was overseas giving my presentation about “The Damsel’s Disappearance” when I was actually homeless.

I have to be strong not because I want to, because I have to.

9 months… Did I not try my best to camouflage myself among the other girls?

Other girls have a home, I’m homeless so I rent and tolerate all kinda nonsense from my roommates.
Because of that, I’ve learnt how to make sure I have enough rest, make my meals, do my laundry, take care of my health so that I can look after myself regardless of where I am.

Other girls have a bed, I work to pay for the bed and the pillow that I now sleep in.
Because of that, I’ve trained my body to endure the heat on sunny days and cold on rainy days so that my body can handle as I travel from the hot Africa to the chill of Europe regardless of the weather.

Other girls have a family, I have people who believe in me and took me back to their homes to see their families when I first became homeless on my birthday.
Because of that, I’ve come to terms with the fact that my life is like this and I can’t turn back time so I have to accept to move on with life regardless of what may happen in the future.

Other girls ask questions, just because mine isn’t about how I look but about the society, do I deserve these?

Other girls make videos, just because mine isn’t about makeup tutorials but about random facts, do I deserve these?

Other girls go overseas, just because mine isn’t about holiday but about my random webseries “The Damsel’s Disappearance”, do I deserve these?

Did I not try my best to camouflage myself among the other girls?

Everyone has 24 hours a day, I spent mine doing research on stuff that I’m interested in rather than putting on makeup like most girls or gossiping anonymously online like most guys.

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If you scroll down, on 17 Jan 2018, my Facebook was reported because of my random webseries “The Damsel’s Disappearance” 😣 Yesterday, on 27 Mar 2018, my Instagram was reported because of my random webseries “The Damsel’s Disappearance” posted on 2 Nov 2017 😫 I don't understand why people enjoy stalking that one young girl born after 1990. Is it so fun to scrutinize her social media accounts? Is it so fun to hack into her emails, to read her private messages and to tap her phone calls? Is it so fun to type transcripts of her YouTube videos or whatever videos she has posted online? There're so many girls out there who wanna be famous, why victimize one who's homely and merely wanna settle down to have her own family? So there's this famous girl who gets invited all around ASEAN, South East Asia, East Asia, Asia etc… After every single trip, a horrible man will harass her and send people to rape her, they've even gang raped her before, no? (Even if she doesn't travel, she gets harassed too) Everytime she gets invited overseas, she will appear on the news. The country will then censor that particular URL that has news about her be it from BBC, CNN, CNBC, Economist, Wall Street, etc… 🤔 They ever tried stopping her from going overseas, they even got the immigration and airlines to send her back when she went overseas zzz 😒 After making the famous girl be out on the street, she (has no other option except) roams on the street. Yesterday, she went to a building and the media was there together with the security. They started saying "She's here, everyone to be on alert, she's here, she's really here" 🙄 If you make a famous girl roam on the street, it's just sooner or later that things will happen yeah?

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Train yourself to let go of everything you fear to lose.

I took half a year to let go of my belongings and to accept I’ll be alone without my loved ones.

On the 7th month, I went to Yogyakarta.
Last month, I learnt how it’s actually possible for me to get back what I’ve lost and maybe even better.

On the 8th month, I went to Zurich, Valencia and Frankfurt.
This month, I learnt how it’s also possible for me to lose again what I have and maybe worse than ever.

I have lost everything, almost.

I lost physical objects of things with sentimental values to me.
I lost emotional support of people I thought will be there for me.

I realised physical objects don’t mean anything when the people who gave things to you are no longer the same.
I realised no matter what people have said or done, people can change and situation can no longer be the same.

Next week, next month, rest of the year… I’m probably gonna lose more.

I’ve to learn to be strong, I’ve to accept that I may end up with literally nothing and there will be no one by my side.